today is st. patrick's day and in his honor, we all donned green in the office today. two of my co-workers prepared muffins with green icing and green rice krispies which we shared throughout the day. and, in some irish pub in the city, my colleagues are probably drowning in green beers now while i crave for a green tea frappuccino here at home.

way back in college, green was my favorite color. almost all the things i owned were green, my mind included  i don't know how it and when it happened but i found myself gradually losing the 'greenness' in me. perhaps it was elle wood's influence that i have joined the 'pretty in pink' club or it was jk's doing (green = sly gangs of slytherin house), or it was simply a testament to how i have evolved into a fine young lady that i have chosen pink over green. today, i only have four green garments in my closet - two tops, one military jacket and one dress. i had long retired my green keroppi mirror which i always carried in my purse. the only thing that's left now is my green hair doctor which i have no intentions of replacing. it is, in a way, one of the seven horcruxes of my life (i have yet to find out what the 6 others are. oh! i love it when i can use hp references every now and then to confuse non-HP readers. haha!)

it still warms my heart to see green, like the luscious grass outside my apartment or the statue of liberty in all her grandeur. it reminds me of a time when i was young and life's images were pretty much simple, perceived only in two colors: green and the others, nothing in between. more importantly, it reminds me of my own journey to consciousness. it's like how it is in the film great expectations when all throughout the film, save for the very last scene, ethan hawke and gwyneth paltrow are wearing green and when they finally see each other in a different light (that was the last scene), they are wearing white. i learned in my cinematography class back in college that green symbolizes a journey to consciousness. i do not know whether or not the film's director has intentionally used the color to signify this process but it does make sense in the end, if one knows the meaning of colors in cinematography. my life is not at all a movie, but it is nonetheless great expectations-like in that way. my affair with green-colored things in the past represented my personal quest to self-identity, nothing more than a prelude to the woman in pink that lied beneath the green exterior.